clearly to see

My eyes was blur.
I used to love him more than her,
I used to see him as the true hero, and she's just the villain in my life,
I used to think about how disappointed I am that he's marrying a person like her.
Today, she comes to me and ask me to eat my medicine
I can't even hold my tears, then she holds me.
I long to feel it, she used to wake me up and walk me to the bathroom with my arms around her belly.
I've lost her attention once, but I got it back now.
The more we hate each other the more I get to know her better
even feels like friends.
When she's far away, her voice is the only thing I desperate to hear.
Now my hero is too disappointing, then my villain is changing into a good person.
I guess I love her and him, equally.