declaration of my independency

Knowing the truth about someone that been your biggest obsession-enthusiasm-creature in this whole world sometimes feels good and sometimes feels regretful because it was far from your expectation. This time I feel very regret knowing it all, regretting every stalking things I did. :(
I feel miserable and the stupid thing I did is watching romantic comedy movie all by myself, called (500) days of summer. I feel like it was me in it, both of the character. When I was with him I was her, When I was with my biggest obsession I was him. The movie really distracted me from the thought of missing my obsession for about an hour or so. The saddest thing is, I miss Thogar. He used to be a good listener, but now he seems doesn't care anymore. There's no chance to be like we used to, How I miss the chitchat.
Totally lonely and got no one to talk to, I decided to feel this lonely sad feeling and enjoying every second of it. Cause in life you can't feel up all the time, there's a time that you're gonna feel that you're in the lowest level in your life. I just trying to set my mind that I can passed it all by myself, no need to call someone to cry or share anything. Cause feeling this sad thing is truly a beautiful pain. Just hold on and convince myself like I'm holding on a big stick, cause sad doesn't always mean bad and I know that this too shall passed. Cause the guy in that movie, let go the girl name summer who had moving on first by married with a guy and then with all his sincerity he meets his autumn. :)
Now
Let me wait for my autumn to come, cause summer doesn't always fun and autumn doesn't always mean we lose the fun from summer. My heart is full of sincerity, and all I've wanted to say is "I'm happy for you boy"