kokohnya hati yang rapuh.

Aku melihatnya meneteskan air mata, sepertinya ia pun terharu. Ia
pun merindukanmu, hari ke hari hanya suara dan pesan singkat
yang ia terima. Mungkin sama denganku, baginya itu semua tidak
cukup. Kami ingin wujudmu, kehadiranmu.


Mengapa kali ini terasa berbeda sekali. Beberapa tahun yang lalu
kau pun pernah seperti ini, meninggalkan kami di awal bulan suci.
Bahkan berbeda benua, dimana komunikasi sangat sulit. Dimana
yang datang bukan lah pesan singkat yang bisa langsung kami
terima, namun sepucuk surat dan beberapa kartu pos yang butuh
waktu lama untuk sampai ke tangan kami.


Suatu pembelajaran baru yang membuat semua ini terasa sulit dan
bukanlah karena kami yang semakin dewasa dan semakin peka. Pada akhirnya pun kami hanya
dapat menerimanya. Karena katamu, disaat
seperti ini bukanlah saatnya untuk saling menyalahkan.


Aku tahu bukan seperti inilah masa tua yang ingin kalian lewati.
Bertahan menjadi satu-satunya alasan klise dan pembesaran hati
yang bisa ditanamkan.

Namun, duniawi bukan segalanya bukan ayah?
:)

should I hang on or should I hang myself on?

I'd rather be killed than to have this feeling in my mind!
She's trying to make me nuts..
She doesn't loves you anymore, and
she doesn't loves me too!
What happened right now is all because of her!
Can she even think about that?????
She makes you not here.
She makes this house different.
She changes everything..
I hate her!

The truth behind my hello

I never felt like this before and I never done this before.
It's like something pushing me to do one good thing in such a proper time. I saw u online then I look at your display picture.
Seems u got a new haircut huh? It's nice.

Some strange feeling told my hands to type on your box.
It is so easy for me to make those words into sentence, then couple of sentence change into a paragraph.

One simple paragraph.

What's in that paragraph?
just a simple words of apology.

That's it,
all we need is just an apology to ask to.

Why would I do that?
Because I don't want to wonder.
Wondering things that I should know it's right.
I need to know that deep in your heart you do forgive me.
And I want you to know that deep in my heart I've forgive you.
The hatred that I used to have change into longing feeling.

Have u ever wonder what if our grandparents still alive and watching us having this war, aren't we just making them sad?

This is our time to grow, and forgiving each other.
Because I do miss our big family.
Accepting various attitude that each of us had will be a good way to start.

So start now. I am starting it.