Their call.

Have you ever get a hard time in your life then you found out that you are by yourself, and you can't find nobody but you? The one that come is not the one you wanted to share. Not because you don't want to tell him, it's just not the right one because the one you used to share with is refuse to listen to you. I felt that right now, it's an indescribable feeling and I guess it's my stupid random feelings that cause by my stupid thoughts. Besides I am accompanied by Oasis, it makes me more fantasizing unnecessary things.
One thing I mostly hate is denial. But hating it becomes 'love doing it' for me, I thought it's alright to do anything to make you feel alright, it's everyone's prerogative and last night I was hoping I could hear the little voice in my head and it end up with sniffing away my tears. It's true what Meredith says that denial isn't just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean!!




Life is changing everyday,
a new accomplishment is just a new beginning of its end. People filled their day with activities while waiting for their death time, my ex-brother says this. They learn, they graduate, they look for a job, they make a decision, they change their look, they make mistakes, they rebuild their life, just like they never satisfied. That's why the only thing in this world that always stays the same is change itself.

People makes call, the surgeon makes a death call, you make your call. I knew it before, I'm asking you to do it then why should I feel sad? Is it just a state of mind or I'm truly sad? You do nothing wrong, but I did nothing wrong too. The way you handle it all is fine then who's the one is not normal here? I know, it's me. Is it my call? Yes it is, time of death 11:08. Reincarnation begin.................................................................................... ta daaa..... new me.

I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean I forget about the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. I am letting go doesn't mean I'm giving up, it means accepting. Accepting that some things were not meant to be, because every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around. Longing feelings sometimes beat me, but I'll try harder this time. Promise myself.

Wise man named Randi said,

Change are always there in our lives, the wise ones accept change, and live with it

Hakuna matata. :)