The hatred you harbor.

"F*ck you, F*ck you very very much..
Coz we hate what you do and we hate your whole crew
so please don't stay in touch"

That song is stuck in my head, beside the nice rhythm, that song is the right song that can reflect my feelings lately (yes, I hate your whole crew FAGGOT!).

The most complicated thing is everyone's trying to makes us forgive each other, but they didn't do it to their own enemies. They do same thing I did which is hard to forgive and forgotten it. Funny to see how they gave me advices and then their mind is thinking.. "DAMN, am I talking to myself?" hahaha..
They say I can't be like this, he can't be like that, I can't stand this, he can't stands that.. But, I said.. I have my own way in forgiving and healing my heart. Not in a quick way, but surely in a slower way. The point is just let me do it on my way..

Seriously when I saw his face yesterday, I felt like I wanna puke! The sadness is fake, the needed-to-be-respect-face is disgusting! That time I know that I don't wanna do it in a short time. Give me a month or couples. I just can't accept the way he blame me. So still, I will do the silent fight so we both can think clearly. One thing for sure, I can't be like I used to be.

Sorry for making you disappointed mommy Andi, but I promise to be a better person as u asked me to. I love you and I never mean to said any cruel words like that, but I know its definitely cruel and sarcasticly torn everyone's heart.

On behalf of my arrogancy I am saying my sorry.